I’m so empty. Something’s missing, and I know exactly what it is. It’s him. I long to see him. See his smile, his eyes, smell him, touch him and feel him. But that’s never gonna happen and it hurts like hell knowing that. Something’s building up inside me and I’m afraid that one day I won’t be able to hold it inside anymore. That I’m gonna explode. What scares me is that I don’t know what’s gonna happen then. I’m scared, sad and tired. I don’t know for how long I can bare this. I wish I could just not feel anything at all. I will rather feel nothing, than feel all of this. I just want it to end."